New Monday.

Make today a beautiful day. All you have to do is decide and that's the beauty of it all. You're the one that gets to decide!!!

New is new

Io IThis is a day that has really really gotten to me. It's a day where you see yourself and think " Dang girl, What's wrong with you??"  

Trying so hard to feel good about everything you are yet knowing that you are not the person you should/need to be. Know that everything you your life is out of control. 

• Your weight 
• Your house
• Your life
• Your organization 

Taking a good look at self and wanting, needing to change. 
Habits have to be started and new things have to be tried.

Because new habits must be formed. You have to change. Your Life depends on it. 

Changes to be shown soon. 

Taking time!!!

 Am I the only one that feels like it's mid-year???

Just feels like there has been so much going on. As if it's not bad enough being short staffed. This year it feels like everyone is calling in. I've worked nothing less than 60 hours a week, and I'm tired. 

We all are!! Being short staffed is hard, but when people call in...... that's really hard. Please take off when you need it, but for those of you that make it a pattern. You make life more difficult for the rest of us. (Rant over, I promise) 

That being said, I've been busy. So busy, I haven't made time for family, friends, or fun. When my niece asked me to take off for her birthday party. How could I refuse????


A whole weekend of camping, s'mores, telling stories around the fire, swimming, and no phones. Sounds like heaven and I couldn't refuse. Her trip was to splashway and the drive there was perfect. My boys, radio, and lots of chatting. The only complaint was the lovebugs.

These pesky bugs made it impossible to see out the window. I made the worst mistake ever and turned on the windshield wipers. Talk about smear city!!!!!! There wasn't enough windshield fluid to wipe away all the bugs. However, it did leave me a nice non see through streak!!!!! 

Here's just a few pics of the weekend!!

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How do you handle it!!!

I'm over the SN's team for our transportation department.

 Have I ever mentioned that???

Well, I've got an issue right now. My team is getting beaten up. We have a kiddo who's carried out to the bus after school kicking and screaming!!! Then just kinda left in the seat. The group ( his teacher, the aide, and male principal) that brought him out, jus kinda casually walk away. 

( In no way is this a shot at that team.  They've had their day already, and it's now time for them to go home.)

It's just now we're left with a very upset kiddo, who does not want to be touched. Strapping him in, is now a huge chore, and trying to calm him down.......

 You're kidding me right??? That's not happening!!!!!

Instead we have a kiddo, who is unable to express his feelings, and lashes out, hitting, biting, and kicking. This is where my concern lays. My aide on the bus. She has to deal directly with him, touching him to secure his belts, talking to him, she tends to get the  brunt of his frustration. 

The bite she got on Friday, set me on a mission. I spent the afternoon looking for coping  strategies. Here's 3 that I found and have already made. 

All pictures are from Pinterest. I'll share mine later

I didn't mind these projects. They took no time at all. However, I'm now concerned that these may be thrown and that I'm creating a bigger problem 

Help!!!!! What are your thoughts??

UPDATE!!!

Having trouble with app. Will update soon!!

Being sick sucks!!!!!

For the past week, I've not felt like myself. I'm ashamed to say it........... But I've been a real jerk!!!!!
I've been extremely irritable, short tempered, and just no fun. This is soooooo not me. I was starting to think I was going through the change (I AM ALMOST 40)   Thinking maybe it was time for some pills of some sort.

It's really not normal for me to be short or rude. I'm embarrassed to say that's been me for the last week or so. Here's a great example. 

I'm not sure if I've told you that at the school district I work for I'm a  driver supervisor. So, I get the opportunity to work with all kinds of personalitys. That's part of what I love about my job. Lately there's a gentleman, let's call him Dave, that's decided it's a good idea to come visit me every afternoon to discuss his route. It's never a short visit taking at least 20 mins for me to hear about the whole afternoon run. On one of these afternoons I walked in and gave my best not today attitudes to Dave. He didn't notice, instead he followed me into my office and began he's story. There was squealing, giggles, and several different sound effects from the afternoon run. My head was pounding and I honestly couldn't take it anymore. I looked up at him and said "Dave the sound of your voice is bugging the hell outta me! Would you please leave my office???", he did not. Instead he began telling me how awful he'd felt the previous week and if I'd like to know what he'd taken that helped. 

I don't remember much about what he said after this. I was mortified, still am to be honest, this is not who I am. Talking to someone like that is so beyond my normal personality. 

My actions at home must have been very similar because my husband made me an appointment with our family doctor. I believe he was thinking  I must be going through the  change but wouldn't dare say it.  It's like he was afraid to say the words. 

I'm not sure why!!!  Lol. 😜 Regardless I went. You see I don't really like myself right now.  The manner in which I've been behaving is so not me. I feel like I'm   losing it, kinda like its not me at all. I'm mad at the world, tired, and easily annoyed!!!! 

Doctors visit reviled that Apparently, I'm not going through the change, but I am sick. 2 ear infections, bronchitis, and a stomach bug. I've been given 3 days off work and told to rest. She said my moods are more than likely due to my illness and me not dealing with being sick.  Meds were prescribed and I've been told I should be better within the week. 

It's pretty sad when you can't stand yourself. An apology was sent to Dave, and he graciously said he knew I wasn't feeling well. Feeling super guilt though, as it's embarrassing knowing that I let myself go there. I'll never let myself act that way again. 

Tomorrow is the last day of work before spring break starts and I'm sure we'll be shorthanded. I hate that I won't be there to help but I do know for sure that this break is welcomed!!!